Not very visible on this photo, but I was trying to catch the first snowflakes on the picture. It must take a better professional photographer or more photo shop work to put it together to be believable. So is entire life. You can not catch and hold a moment or recall and hold onto yesterday. Every day we have to part with something even if it is only the day gone by. We can not know what will come next morning. I have fought hard into my mind about all the psychological and scientific terminologies for feelings, chemical actions in our bodies , science and all that we assume for granted in a run of a day. But Life from the day you are born is a mystery and I have quite a long and colourful life behind to see that it isn't us that arrange the life. We accept somethings as right; we don't have any idea what is right. Is there an absolute right? I have been through rough and nice times, have laughed and cried no end at times. I have searched solutions in different social communications, but at this time I only know, mind you even that doubtful, God is the safest one to believe and feel safe. Man made religious organizations do help if you find one that cares for your soul and tries what is disturbing it. Sometimes we ourselves don't know what are we searching for. I don't believe that anyone is entirely content how routinely life runs. There is more to it. So why I catch the first sight of the first snowflakes? Maybe the winter's snow white cower will bring a clean-white view to my soul. - I know I am only trying to console myself to find peace within my own soul about the friends and people around me who are not happy and don't slow down to see how little it takes to find joy to live if we let God run our life. Catching snowflakes is just a moment to see that all what is in this world isn't for us to have. It is hard to find peace in your soul all by yourself, even if you seem to have all you need. My soul is demanding and it is hard to put it into entire peace.
What makes me think about all this? Is my soul so bad or so hurt that I can not stop searching for the ultimate peace? Is there one?
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