May 4th 2013

Waiting -
Isn't that what life is about?
I am accusing anyone - just lonely - who knows what is it like to be my age , always being active, maybe not always the way God wants me to go. I am getting more tired physically , but so far my mind and my soul is still active and criticising myself. Am I  expecting things that other people can not do? I did spent my life helping people who were incapable to hep themselves. I really felt good then. But according to the Bible - what you give will get returned some time or other.  Am I at this point insignificant and unimportant? I still have the same feelings for others I had when I was filling my days without thinking if  I have a life of my own - just help others to feel as comfortable and as loved as I did. Did I make illusions for my self? Isn't that the real earthly way of living? Why am I so frustrated? To me it feels like I have always given and never received the love I thought was suppose to come back to me?
I guess I'll never know the real truth until there after...