New Years Day 2010/01/01

...white

the colour of purity

snow

expected for Christmas

winter solstice

December 21st, no snow

my primula still
blooms November 1st

This morning all is white, all is covered with soft snow.

New year begins pure white and still keeps snowing.

Actually - I feel peace - clean, serene, not by our creation -

-just be still and know - we make the paper calendar

-the Great Creator finds it different -

-enjoy in peace and take a resolution for the

New Year to let it all be taken care by the Almighty Power...

...sunny day for my soul...

Couple days ago I wrote a poem:

...dark...

morning after morning
- dark
my body hurting
- dark
my mind blank
-dark
hard to face a new day
everyday rain
everyday tragical news
everyday complaints
Who was holding back the Light?

That picture was the first sight
this morning.
I saw the sun coming up and like golden veil covering
all the trees and brushes in its way. What a sight! Heaven had sent the Light
to start a new day. like overload of power to lift up my drab thoughts occupying
my soul these dark days.
To make it all the more radiant I had a visitor who brightened the day completely.
The Light mus have been held back for a purpose for me
to realise that I don't make the days or the Light.
...my prayers have been answered...

Unusual

What a day! First sunlight fell on a scant veil of snow spread over everything. First day of December. Nature does not go by man made calendar. Winter does not start according to it till twenty first. Though autumn does not want to surrender easily. My primulas are still trying to keep blooming even so this mornings snow was notifying them about winters approach just small steps at a time. I just could not resist taking pictures of the unusual morning for later memory.
Surprise! Within couple hours heaven cried for parting with autumn - it rained and washed all the snow away. I had another look at my beautiful primula and she had the brightest smile to sun.
...and I just thought - I did not organize this - still -
cheer full appreciation about the way the Great Creator lets us know that he controls natures calendar.

Cheer up...

I have not writen on this blog for a while. Days have started rather cold for the last couple weeks, even as low as -14 degrees C. This morning was just 0, but it was dark. The promised sun never appeared. It was so dark that inside the house I could not read without switching on the light. Depressing. Unruly. Lazy.

Nothing seemed to be encouraging to do some creative work. Just to get myself somehow in the spirit, as I went to pick up my mail, I walked around the garden and found couple primulas blooming. This one had the brightest smile. She did not worry about the cold or the oak leaves shedded for the winter. She still keeps blooming through the trash.

A good example for my dreary mind - life is worth blooming no matter that the sky is dark.There will be sun an other day. So I took couple pictures of this brave plant and came back in to try getting my thinking in positive degree.

...rain, rain, rain...

It has been a dark weather all week. Every morning looking out the window seemed like
end of season too fast and too depressing.
It had me going though quite content. I had some very pleasant visitors to uplift my soul.
I had my car repaired and when I paid the estimated amount, the men came out before I left and gave me back $ 50.00. It really surprised me. People like that are hard to find these days. I was so happy, went right from there to get my car the winter rust proof oiling and that also was costing less than I had expected. I had some other phoning business to do. I thought I wont be able to manage by myself, but it worked. I also got a phone call that my book has been done - the 2nd print - and will be delivered on Saturday. Great blessings all through the week despite the dreary weather.
Today with nothing to worry about I stood at the front window and realized that autumn is rushing fast to make room for winter. Not heavy, but it rained. The rainwater beat the rusty leaves from my oak that normally hangs on to it way into snow. The whole lawn was covered with carpet-like fallen leaves. Discouraging, somehow. Then I thought we are suppose to find something positive in any situation. Thinking that and of feeling sad, I noticed that the fallen leaves, being wet, sort of glittered. It just touched my soul - there is Light somewhere and even in the rain it glows. Maybe it was kind of guilt feeling that I did not say thanks to the Lord for having this day so still and actually pretty. Was I on the way to complain? About the weather darkness? I know better - just too bad I did not have anyone for this morning to share the sight and the sillent glow of heaven's Light shining of the leaves...

another morning

Awakening I saw first

the same ash tree

the same blue sky

just the tree has shed half of its leaves

the birch trees also are crumpled rusty

dropping one leaf at a time

slowly, slowly

winter is comming

though human calendar

showed autumn started just two days ago

do the trees know more than the electronic

weather metrology?

The trees don't push buttons

they feel....

heaven speaks

It's the first thing I see as I open my eyes in the morning. Summer is leaving. We did not have a summer as we were accustomed to. It did not follow the forecaster diagrams (ha-ha -electronics). The last 15 days have had sun, but it was not as warm as we expect in a summer. Trees slowly start dropping leaves, though they are not in a most colourful autumn attire yet.

This ash tree outside my window is rushing to drop its leaves. Some how it does not make me enjoy it - thoughts about winter - trees will have another spring - will I? All this writing does not mean anything to other people. Life goes on, but I have to notice it. The aging makes me wonder - what next? When? Waiting for what? Hoping for what? Trying to keep my heart beat normal. What is normal at this stage of life? I notice all the little changes in nature, but does that apply to me too? Sort of hidden fear...