My 14, 2013
It is late to be awake for me. It has been a busy day. I was doing work that actually is beyond my capability, but I did feel good and can not say that my arthritis made too big of pain. I was anxious to try my electric lawn mover. Sonja does not want to do this work, at least for me that I know, any more. So I have to find someone to help me doing with the work my body refuses to handle. Dirk’s son Nathaniel was going to do the cutting. It isn’t grown enough to do it yet, but I thought , I have still the electric lawn mover in the shed and decided to try if it works after all the years it has been laying there open to rust and what ever deteriots it.
To my own surprise, I did manage to get it going and even cut the places on the lawn where the weeds had grown bigger. It works. I can do some of myself – for exercise. Maybe not the whole lawn at once, but it makes me feel good that it did not hurt me. My back wasn’t really happy about it but it was not more that I could not handle without taking painkillers. Great feeling to be able to manage once need by me.
I do have problem with the computer. I still can not find how to get additional entries in my blog. Dirk said he will come and see what he can correct in m my mess. He is such a great helper; I have no way of how to thank him.
So I decided to write just on any file and transfer later to the blog.
The e-mail I got from Ruta – I can see that her life has a different way of floating through than mine. Indra does not answer much on my e-mails. Where are relationships between siblings?
Maybe I am different, but in what way do I deserve to be ignored?
I am sure glad I found connection with God and belong to the church where people try more or less to live as Jesus asked them. So do I.
It does bring peace in the soul even in a little creations God has made and normally we don’t notice. Well, for me it is the thing to enjoy and know – we don’t rule anything in our life. In a way I am glad even so some days are hard to help my mind at peace.
See how I manage from now. Depends of when Dirk will find time and set my mind technically at peace. He is great and I do admire how he manages all the good deeds he does. May god bless him.
May 19, 2013
I wish I could write on my log, but I am stuck and Dirk is away at the cottage. I am trying to get the Afghans done for the bridal shower. Hard on my hands. I do get up and just watch out the window.
How little we notice the beauty of every day surroundings. Maybe I am not like most people. I do find a true joy just watching how the leafs are getting bigger day by day, how the lilac and apple blossom buds are opening, how the birds don’t seem to be happy that I am cutting down on the feeding. It is time they get uses on self support. The whole place looks so peaceful.
The two rabbits are enjoying them selves and I do enjoy there connection or disagreements. It just is peace people ignore. It is a beauty better than any human artist can make. Being alone I do feel abandoned lots of time, but when I look out there – I’m not. The Lord creates the view to peace…
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